It hurts...

... when someone close to you does things behind your back.

Sure.. they wanted my help. I helped as much as I could.

But I could only help so much.

The rest they had to decide and do themselves right?
I mean, I can't decide for them. 

I've given them the options... 

For God's sakes... its their lives.. not MINE !!!!

And now they do things all behind my back.

Not telling me.

Not informing me.

Picking up where I left off.

Not even giving me the decency of telling me about it.

Now its all done... I'll have to pick up whatever pieces that is left.

And clean up whatever mess they might have left.

All I get is an sms asking me to do so and so.

And not even a hint of what they did.

Should I be mad? Should I be angry?
Hell... I'm only human.

I have feelings too.

What should I do now?

I can't close my eyes.

I still need to help as they have left a huge baggage here which I am suppose to help take care.

Not because I have to.

But because I want to.

Because I LOVE that baggage.

Because I CARE.

Because I am worried about what will happen to IT.

Arrggghhh... if only things didn't have to turn out this way.

If only they didn't have to act so childishly.

We would be happily drinking, enjoying ourselves and not feel bitter like this !!!

ARRRGGGHHH ... damn it.. it HURTS !!